I didn't get to sleep until after 1:30AM last night as my heart was very heavy with the thought of Megan leaving earth and going to be with Jesus. Megan is a young lady that arrived in ICU two days after my niece had arrived. At 18 years of age and a recent graduate, Megan was fighting for her life against a serious illness. Her family was inspirational, and shared their journey as we watched them walk by faith through their journal on Caringbridge.
For the past month, I've been going to bed every night and waking in the morning reading her journal and praying for her and her family. Megan has been on my prayer list right along side my niece who is now preparing to go home on Friday. Last night as I read her dad's journal my heart sank. I started drafting words of comfort and strength. I had writer's block. My mind was racing. I prayed and prayed. Finally, there they were... simple but from my heart.
I learned this morning that at 1:37AM Megan's father posted that indeed Megan has left us to be with our Heavenly Father. I laid on my bed and cried. How painful for her family. As a mother of three my heart ached. I can't even begin to understand what it would be like to watch your child walk this journey. It was hard enough for me to watch my niece, brother and sister in law walk their journey, and I ooze with gratitude at Isabel's outcome.
I am grateful for the promise of Heaven, and eternal life. What a delight that Heaven is the blessing not our lives here on earth. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and that each of us has a purpose here on earth.
As I look at my life and all that has happened in the past years I can see many blessings in the trials and tribulations. This is only what I can see from my eyes. How exciting to think of what is happening around me that I can't see or don't even know about as a direct result of my journeys. Am I fulfilling my purpose here on earth? I pray for God's will, and the strength, courage and wisdom to carry it out. I enjoy my time with God. My conversations have evolved over time, and I continue to grow in His presence.
Today I try to see the rainbows through the storm clouds.
"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one that has opened for us."